As I am commuting to work and I’m having great coffee, free WiFi and free TV I am feeling great. I do have to make a connection to get to my preferred airport but I get to see a friend in between my flights.
This does not sound bad. It is not always like this. I am usually very positive about commuting because that is just what I have to do for now. There is no point of complaining and being bitter. If you find a hobby or take a nap on these flights, they become useful. Also I just have the thought of getting my transfer soon in the back of my mind.
The worst part about commuting is that right now I am going through a time where I start feeling the loneliness come in. On my layovers it’s not that bad. I usually feel it kick in if I am in my crash pad and my friends aren’t there. Also, if I’m at home by myself.
There are multiple reasons why I feel lonely. It’s the job itself and reaching almost a year mark of being single after ending a 5 year relationship. I try to make this journey about myself and really trying to explore what I enjoy to do in my free time, what I want in life and what kind of people I enjoy spending time with. Somehow life still hits me with those feelings of loneliness and it is a little difficult to push those away at times.
Well I am happy that this commute won’t involve a little cry session in the lavatory (long story, rough day, it was short and to the point) due to a random panick attack. I might have a random panick attach once I open my bag and notice I forgot to pack my charger for my work phone, but I will figure it out. Thats is what we have to do as flight attendants I guess. We have to figure out how to solve random problems that come from living in a suitcase.
Now I am going of on a tangent so I will end this. It felt good to write in here again. Letting this feeling out and sharing it openly helps me feel not so alone.